I Lie Awake Thinking of You

Psalm 17:3-5

You have tested my thoughts and examined my heart in the night.
    You have scrutinized me and found nothing wrong.
    I am determined not to sin in what I say.
I have followed your commands,
    which keep me from following cruel and evil people.
My steps have stayed on your path;
    I have not wavered from following you.

Psalm 63:1-8

O God, you are my God;
    I earnestly search for you.
My soul thirsts for you;
    my whole body longs for you
in this parched and weary land
    where there is no water.
I have seen you in your sanctuary
    and gazed upon your power and glory.
Your unfailing love is better than life itself;
    how I praise you!
I will praise you as long as I live,
    lifting up my hands to you in prayer.
You satisfy me more than the richest feast.
    I will praise you with songs of joy.

I lie awake thinking of you,
    meditating on you through the night.
Because you are my helper,
    I sing for joy in the shadow of your wings.
I cling to you;
    your strong right hand holds me securely.

Reflection

Rahab’s son Boaz marries Ruth, who becomes the grandmother of Jesse, whose youngest son, a talented harp player and shepherd, would years later become one of the greatest kings of Israel. While God is working out the lineage of his future Son, he is also outworking the promise of the Israelite nation. During this time the Israelites successfully conquer their promised land, establish a nation at first ruled by judges and then by its first King, Saul.

David wasn’t part of the original line up. According to lineage Saul’s son Jonathon and his line should have become the rulers of Israel. Yet again God is more interested in an open heart than in outward appearance.

David’s journey to his destiny was long and complex. He was described by God as a man after His own heart, and this is evident both in his responses to the challenges he faced, and in his heart poured out to God through the psalms. David was a worshipper from a young age – in fact it is his anointed harp playing that first brings him into the court of King Saul. Time and again we see David triumph through his worship heart and his deep understanding of God’s character and love.

David was aware of the beauty of night as a time of intimacy and connection with God, when the demands and struggles of the day are left behind and space is created in our hearts. David composed both of these psalms during his long flight from Saul’s wrath. In the face of constant fear and opposition, and the devastating betrayal of his beloved leader, David clings to God’s promises. His nights become a time of meditation and wonder instead of terror. This constant reminder of God’s love and faithfulness keeps David strong in his long journey to the promise.

Prayer:

During times of conflict and confusion, instead of lying awake thinking of your troubles, fix your thought on God’s goodness and his love and let your nights become moments of meditation and peace.

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